Tuesday, January 29, 2013

don't sleep

We all know the expression: Time flies... But the truth is, time doesn't fly. A second is a second, a minute is 60 seconds, an hour is 3600 seconds. It is absolute. Whether you are happy or sad, time stays constant. 

I learnt this while I was in Melbourne. I feel like I've barely left home and yet, simultaneously, Melbourne feels like a distant memory. A thing of the past. 

But that's not true. In less than a month, I must leave Kuching once again and this time, actively pursue a future I do not yet want but understand to be a good choice. 

When I was younger, I loathed vegetables. I'd eat them in a single, huge mouthful and swallow them whole if I absolutely had to. But as I got older I understood their benefits and therefore chose to consume them - not because I liked them, but because I knew I should. Now, I can't go 3 days without veggies. I crave them. I want them as much as I need them. 

So this unwillingness to leave home is a bittersweet compromise of acknowledging what I want and accepting what I need. 

I really am reluctant to go, and I can't help but feel like time is merciless. Though, it has nothing to do with time at all, it is, after all, inanimate  - I just never wanted to admit 3 months was short. I wanted to believe 3 months could last a lifetime. 

Sunday, January 20, 2013

♥ 190113

I went to Level Up Fitness today because I feel that I have been terribly overeating and overdosing on alcohol. The bf signed a 1 year contract which can be put on suspension for a year FOC because he's a student! :D I got a 1 week pass from my friend and used that instead because I wanted to try out their facilities & classes.

The gym is really well equipped and is by far the nicest gym I've ever been to. The gym goers are really helpful and friendly. I was staring at a machine and a guy came by and taught me how to use it. Halfway though, I decided that 4.5kg was really too light and as I leaned forward to up the weight, another guy told me DON'T DO IT because the muscles I was using are not muscles which are often used and therefore I probably won't be able to walk tomorrow if I increase the weight and exceed 30 reps. How nice is that? I love considerate people who don't gain anything by helping others but do it anyway just because.

However, after going for yoga in Melbourne, the yoga instructor at Level Up is relatively... Bad. I understand that Kuchingites may not have the best command of English, but personally, I think that the instructor could've improved herself by speaking clearly. Half the time I couldn't quite hear her and a quarter of that time, I didn't understand what she was saying because she didn't enunciate properly. As for relaxation, she was quiet, and while that might be common here in Kuching... I'm used having someone say, "feel your ankles melt into the floor and float away" hehe... Overall, she seemed like a nice person and made sure everyone did their poses correctly and my, my, I love her petite and toned body!

I guess we generally will never be satisfied with what we have. While in Melbourne, I couldn't help but find faults in its society and weather and food (and probably a whole slew of other things) but now that I'm home, I can't help but yearn for Melbourne's lack of mosquitoes, cleaner and drier air (because my nose was killing me for the first 2 weeks I came home) and chilly breezes. I'm such a complainer! Sheesh.

On a less critical side, I just came home from having a few beers with a couple of friends. I will really miss chilling with my highschool friends when I go back to Melbourne. And as I always say, it's not where you are, it's who you're with.

Night world.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

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I did a photoshoot yesterday with Gerald Lim from randomshutter.com. It's a creepy punk themed shoot and I can't wait to share it on my blog! :) Finally something solid instead of just almost there posts. I actually have a lot to blog about... Ever since coming back, I've made a lot of purchases. You can't really say no when you realize that the price for the exact same product is the fraction of its price in Melbourne. For example, Revlon lip butters are AUD20+ in Melb and MYR20+ in Kuching! There's an exchange rate of 3.2(?) so purchasing a Revlon lip butter in Melb is equivalent to purchasing 3 in Kuching!

But I can't deny that the dresses I bought from Melb are of superior quality & cut. Well... Duh, right? At that price, if it wasn't a lot better than it wouldn't be worth it at all. What am I even saying? The only qualm I have is that Australians are too goddamn trendy. If cutouts are the in thing, you'd be sure that the only dresses you can find have cutouts. So what about the minority who dislikes the current trend? I for sure hate cutouts (but I own a few dresses with cutouts cos the dresses themselves are gorgeous - just ruined by those RANDOM HOLES!!! RAWR!!!) and fluorescent (NEON COLORS?! please, I'm forever a pastel girl <3). I guess it can be cool for trendfollowers (can't stand the word trendsetters, because if the trend is already there, you're not setting, you're fucking following!), but I'm not one of them.

Come to think about it, I don't really have my own style either. I am a jeans/shorts & tee kinda girl. But I've forbidden myself to buy anymore t-shirts because I'm so sick of the whole ensemble! Took me 23 years on this planet to get sick of it but I finally have. I'm going to try my best to stay away from tshirts from now on so...

Here's to attempting to create my own style, not fashion.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

The 3 Nasis

I went to Brunei for Christmas (click to see my Christmas dinner on Insta!). And I haven't gone near a weighing scale since because aside from eating, we ate more.

I wanna share with you the 3 best nasis from Brunei (in no particular order).

Nasi lemak. 3 servings. 
Forgot to take a photo of this ._. But it's nasi lemak. I'm sure you know what it is!

Nasi katok. 4 servings. Bought from a house. 

Nasi pusu. 2 servings. Bought from the market.

And to top it off, my all time favorite is ayam penyet from Serasa (I don't know the name of the shop). I had 3 in a day. That's A LOT, compared with nasi lemak, pusu or katok because the rest are in tiny packets whereas this ayam penyet comes with a full serving of rice.

Like that how to not get fat? 

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

♥ 010113

I promised a post last week sometime ago but here it is. :) Happy 2013 guys!

I came home to an array of celebration! The first was my mother's early 50th birthday.

The day after was my brother's marriage to his lovely fiancee of what, 8 years? She's been with him for so long I already see her as my sister, but nothing like a lavish wedding to make it official! It was a hell of a tiring few days, especially for the new bride, but weddings are magical and beautiful so it's all worth it!

Then, my darling nephew Jer's full moon! I fell in love with him the moment I saw his picture and his dimples! He has set the standard for all other babies I'd see in my life. He is the cutest thing ever and no one else's kid will ever compare to him! Hahaha I'm so prejudiced it's insane but he is adorable. I dare you to say he is not!

I had a short holiday in Brunei with my relatives and is now spending time with my brother in KL. I feel like such a jetsetter. I can definitely imagine myself flying here and there for my work because I actually find it relaxing to be in an airplane because it's me myself & I time. Something that I try my hardest to avoid when I am on land.  

I have been enjoying Malaysia so much I haven't even had time to upload pictures on FB save for one single photo with my lover Lizard lol. And I have forgotten how shit the internet in Kuching is (KL's a whole different story, why ah?), it keeps disconnecting so it's pretty fucking frustrating to do anything. Even something as simple as going on FB. But that's what smartphones are for, right? Aside from copying photos to and from my hard disk and cameras, I haven't really sat down in front of my laptop since getting back from Melbourne! Speaking of which...

I don't ever want to go back to Melbourne!!! T^T But I don't have a choice... The most I can do is treasure every moment in Malaysia and appreciate my time with friends & family. Will try my best not to neglect my blog but that's a hard promise to keep. :D

Anyway, today's the first day of 2013 which means RESOLUTIONS. I love making resolutions but have a hard time keeping them so I'll only make a few not overly ambitious ones.

1. Lose 5kgs or more (teehee), tone up and maintain! (I guess this is probably the top priority for most girls xD)
2. Stop starting projects I do not intend to finish.
3. Be more a more constant and reliable blogger.

There, 3 resolutions for 2013.